A Long Overdue Update...

Sorry for taking so long to update - again! I have just been taking each day as it comes really.

Had our next hospital appointment on Thursday 7th June at 8.15am arrived way too early again but were seen first which was good. Internal scan showed lining was thin and ready to go, then nurse showed me how to do my gonal-f injections of which I am having 225 per injection. Had some blood taken then off we went with my purple bag of drugs (purple has always been my favourite colour).  Hubby treated me to breakfast in the hospital canteen of toast and bacon which was yum then we had to walk down the city for my acupuncture appointment.  It was fab, she is just lovely and really "gets" it.  I first seen her on 31st May she knows her stuff and is clued up on my hospitals protocols and consultants names etc! 

On Thursday and friday I had gonal f injections twice daily then it went back to once a day which I have chosen to do in the evenings. Starting on Saturday 9th June I have to sniff buserelin 4 times per day 7am, 12pm, 6pm and 11pm.  I was at my local horse show on Saturday I was there much longer than planned but it was a lovely sunny day and I didn't do too much except walking and holding my horse it was great to spend time with him and he won both of his classes and went champion :-) 

Sunday I felt pretty awful and rested for most of the day.  Luckily I was reading fifty shades of grey trilogy and they were fab, really took my mind off all things IVF :-)

I am struggling with work now I can't seem to concentrate at all but luckily one of my colleagues is fab and told me anything I don't fancy doing just give to her which I am really grateful of.

had a few rocky patches with hubby and he told me he thinks that if our IVF fails then I will leave him. You would think our infertility is down to him - but it's me! Well all we can do is ride it out.  It's his birthday today so I gathered up the energy to make him his favourite for dinner steak, mushrooms, onion rings and fried egg lol!

On that note, my mum made me a massive pot of chicken and vegetable soup to help me eat healthy and get protein which is great so I have been taking it to work for lunch.

Back to the hospital on Friday 15th June for another scan and bloods so hope that goes well.  Which means perhaps only 3 more injections (plus HCG booster) left to go!!

Thanks for reading I will endeavour to update more regularly.

As a last note one of my cycle buddies sadly had a really awful experience and I just want to take this moment to say I regularly think of you hun and will always be here for you xxx

Love MrsM
xx

Had first injection of many!

Well Wednesday 16th at 8.15am was our appointment.  We left in plenty of time as have to head into busy city centre and were there in plenty of time.  The were running late so didn't get seen until 8.35am it was very quick 10 minute appointment, I was more nervous than normal about the injection as it was a different nurse.  The injection itself wasn't sore but it was nippy when the stuff went in!

On way out we treated ourselves to a hot chocolate and it was very disappointing :-(

Got to work at 9.30am which was good so less time to work back! A few hours later I was getting mild abdominal pains and sore heads.  Was so tired in the evening I went to bed at 8pm!  I did read for an hour which was good to de-stress and wind down.

All day on Thursday I was in agony it was awful I could barely walk it felt like someone was stabbing me in the tummy.  I was desperately drinking as much water as possible but it didn't seem to help.  Again was in bed at 8pm but was at the toilet peeing at least every half an hour had a terrible sleep.  BUT I actually feel much better today so the water must be doing the trick eventually!  Now I need to try and drink more in the day than in the evening so I can sleep without feeling like my bladder is going to burst.

Hubby is being great I am so impressed with him I hope he keeps it up!

xx

Treatment Card!

Sorry been a bit slow in updating been very busy.

So I got my treatment card through which is great and is as follows:-

16/05/12 Prostap injection
07/06/12 Gonal f injections start 225iu x 2, blood test, scan
08/06/12 Gonal f injection 225iu x 2
09/06/12 to 14/06/12Gonal f injection 225iu and buserelin nasal spray 7am, 12pm, 6pm and 11pm
15/06/12 Gonal f injection, buserelin spray, blood test, scan
16/06/12 Gonal f injection, buserelin spray, hcg injection
18/06/12 Egg collection
19/06/12 Phone lab to check fertilisation
21/06/12 cyclogest pessaries (biopsy day)
22/06/12 Embryo Transfer
03/07/12 Blood pregnancy test!

So it is all very real now and a week today I will have had my first injection!

I have been manically trying to get lots done around the house etc so there isn't so much on my mind when treatment starts!

Will be sure to keep you updated after first appointment next week

MrsM xx

Finally we are on the move!!

Well I am pleased to say I finally got dates from the hospital yesterday when AF showed up.  So first appointment for prostap injection is 8.15am on 15th May!!! I honestly didn't think I would be started this cycle so it was a bit of a surprise but a good one! And now to look forward to my body being put into menopause oh joy the things we do eh lol! Glad I started my diet just over a week ago so now can seriously follow it with this to look forward to.  And have Scone Horse Trials tomorrow to look forward to aswell and I better make the most of it as I don't think I will be up to going to the next event which is Floors on 19th May but I will see how I feel :-)

MrsM xx

Week One in on positive outlook

Well all in all the week hasn't been too bad.  I cut out caffeine completely, have been eating a lot better although have had a few treats lol, back on vitamins and been riding again too.  I think a major help is the weather has been really good which I feel lifts your spirits :-)

Weirdly looking forward to AF arriving in next 3 weeks everything crossed I will get to start treatment, but I doubt it so trying not to get my hopes up too much.

MrsM xx

Positive Outlook??

Well its Sunday evening and Im going to try to take on the beginning of the week with some positivity! Starting to get back to healthy eating, taking vitamins again and also getting to ride again yay! Think it helps that the weather has been lovely all weekend which brightens the spirits a bit!

I had reflexology yesterday and it was an hour of pure bliss! I still want to go for acupuncture so can't afford both but I would definitely recommend it!

Have my annual review at work on Wednesday which I am not looking forward to as there is so much I am not happy with but we will see what happens!

MrsM xx

Sorry for abandoning blog!

Apologies for being AWOL :-)

Ok so since my last blog we had our appointment on 22nd Feb filled in all consent forms, I had more bloods done to test AMH again and also vaginal swabs.  The she dropped a bombshell that we won't actually be starting in April it will now be June/July.  I have to start to call her from next month at the start of each cycle and she will fit us in from there.  This caught me off guard to be honest as she told me April, if not earlier.  And yes it may not seem much longer its just moving the goal posts again and affecting our day to day lives again. 

So what else has been happening, well I got a new washing machine which is amazing!!!! My horse (well friends horse I ride) went lame and has been off work for over a month but is gradually getting better now.   Had a lovely night out with the girls from the stables to pizza hut then to see war horse at the cinema. Had my first ever acupuncture and it was an awful experience, the man was just horrible but after emails to and from the manager I got most of my money back and Im getting a free reflexology session with a different practitioner. Now need to go into Glasgow city centre for a decent acupuncturist which is a pain but Im not risking that again!

On the 16th Feb we found out our darling baby dog (2.5 years old) was dying with stage 4 lymphoma and leukemia.  On 3rd march we said goodbye to him. We are so sad to lose our big softy boy who was to grow up with our baby (positive thinking).  He has left a very big hole in our lives. a lady I know is doing me a drawing of him for my hubbys birthday I cant wait.

So after all of this I have stopped my healthy eating, been drinking coffee again, have got very drunk once or twice (after not drinking since New year), stopped taking my vitamins.  Work has been a living hell this year so far too for many reasons and its not going to get better any time soon.  Doesnt help that I am so skint and cant stop worrying about it, a wee lottery win would do nicely right about now!

Now Im not riding at all since horses owner is doing it all so need to do something to get fit and healthy again, mega busy week working in Glasgow training so as of next week I will be starting a new regime hopefully lol!

Thanks for reading all this if you did

MrsMxxxxx