Well I dutifully called the lab at 2pm today to hear that of our 9 fertilised eggs only 4 have made it to biopsy. I am pretty upset at this as I really thought there would be more and therefore more chance of one or two (or more!) "normal" embies for us. So we have basically gone from 16 eggs collected, to 14 suitable for ICSI, to 9 fertilised, to 4 suitable for biopsy.
Ihave also in the last few moments realised something else, its
not just not having a baby at the end of this that is a worry, it's
putting ourselves and our marriages/relationships, and our bodies
through all of this to get nothing in return. I really don't know if I
will be able to do all this again. On the verge of tears here but I
can't as I'm sitting at work. Really hope boss takes his time coming in
this afternoon I really could do without him being here.
Cannot wait to get home tonight.
The worst part is that NO-ONE seems to "get" it. I know that sounds really selfish but no matter how much I explain it to people they don't understand. Even my mum just said oh so your biopsy will remove the abnormal cells from those 4. If only mum, if only.